Letter XXI

Date: Fri, 21 Jul 2006 10:21:20 +0400
From: "Natalia" <magnetic06@lilyway.com>
To: XXXXXXXXXX@yahoo.com
Subject: Last relations...



Hello my dearest XXXXXXXX! How are you feeling now? I am glad to write you today. I have seen dream yesterday at night. It was nice dream and I think I will tell you about it soon in my next e-mails. Did you see any dream about us? Can you tell me what did you see? Today I have a lot of work and I can't write long letter. But I will try to write as so much, as I can. How the weather in your country? Here is cold a little. Temperature +13C and all night and morning was rain. Today I found out that my riend Olga in hospital. She is ill. She got sick yesterday. I will visit her this weekend. I don't know what happened with her exactly but I will know this weekend. I just accidentally met her mom and she said me that Olga in hospital now. It's not good news but I hope everything will be allright and Olga will recover soon. You know XXXXXXXX, I thouhgt a lot about my past relations and I decided to let you know about my past relations with men. It was just one time but I want you to know about it. Because I don't have secrets from you XXXXXXXX. I want to tell you that Russian men, almost all of them, usually treat to women disrespectfully. They consider that woman only have to work, to cook, to wash cloths and entertain the man when he wants. For the Russian man it is a usual thing to offend a woman. I like to cook, take care of my apartment, wash clothes but sometimes I would like to receive a simple caress, love and attention to me! I don't want to offend all the men. Of course there are good men in Russia but they are not many. Men usually speak dirty words when speak with woman and consider that there is nothing bad in such behavior. Some years ago I had boyfriend. We had good time together (I think I haven't told you about it earlier). He was kind. But he liked to drink. When he got drunk he became an absolutely other person. He talked with me with bad and dirty words. The time passed and his love to alcohol became a habit. He became another person - rude and evil! He had taken a great interest in beating me, frequently struck and knocked me by hands and the next day he smiled and talked with me as if nothing had happened. I began to be afraid of him and I have left him. Second time I met other guy but I figure out quickly that all what he want is the sex and nothing more. I stopped our relations and he even was not upset. My soul was wounded very much, my heart was broken. After this I couldn't make myself to meet another man. At least here. Now I don't trust Russian men. Because I know there is a lot of man who like to drink. A lot of heavy drinkers. I think our country have a lot of troubles in social sphere and in life of people at all because of this problem. I am afraid to give my love to someone and get back just a rudeness and misunderstanding. If you have disagreements with lady, you XXXXXXXX can apply roughness? Do you XXXXXXXX capable to change a usual quarrel to the peace, pleasure and a smile? I hope so. I dream and think that I meet my man who will take care about me, make me happy! I would do the same for him and would do everything I could to make him the happiest man in the world! I would follow him everywhere he goes no matter how far it would be! I would leave my friends and family to be with my man if it should be. I would try to visit and communicate with my former homeplace sometimes but my man is the most important for me than everything else! I have prepared new picture for you today. Actually I prepared more than one picture and I will send it to you. I have attached one picture here and tomorrow I will send other. You know that usually all my pictures was taken by my friends or me or my mom. I don't use service of special photographers. I just sent you simple pictures not professional. I hope you liked it. Like I loved yours. I would like sometime to send you more sexual picture but I don't have it. I think maybe later it may happen. I will think about it. I want to tell you I love you very much and all my feelings to you are real!!! Do you understand it XXXXXXXX?!!! I want to find tender, nice man and to create family with him. I want to have children. I love children! I want to take care about them and about my husband too!! I really want it! It's my main purpose in life! Do you understand me? I love you XXXXXXXX and it's true! I am sure! If you really think the same to me I think we need to try to make our relations more closely! Do you agree with me XXXXXXXX? I would even come to you if you want it of course. I already wrote you before I will follow to my love to any place in the world. There will no any barriers for me. Because my love will help me to find my man. And I really hope that this man you %toname! Can you confirm my words? I would like to hear these words from you if you really sure in your feelings. I am sure in my feelings! I love you my XXXXXXXX. You are the best man for me and I hope we can meet someday. Hope soon! Can I to know about your point of view about it? I will finish my letter. I hope you could to know little more about me. I will wait your next letter with impatience.

Hugs and kisses from your Natalia.

P.S. Ow, just forgot to tell you I can't write you this weekend. I will write on monday and will try to write tomorrow. Maybe I will send you message from internet club but I am not sure. I will miss you XXXXXXXX.

Ahh, the saga continues..........